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    Dark visions

    August 19, 2017
    Dark visions

    I struggle with depression. Underneath these curly blond hair and this big wide smile, there are some pretty dark and troublesome visions.

    If you don’t know it, it’s not that I’m trying to hide it from anyone. It’s simply not something you can casually share next to the coffee machine. If it does come out, it will probably be in some sort of whining you might confuse with the usual grumble about daily life of those who live in the corporate world. Therefore you only get to see the itsy bitsy tip of the iceberg.

    You have no idea what it feels like to wake up in the morning wanting to throw up, to ask yourself if it is justified to call in sick when your biggest health issue is a creation of your mind. You don’t know how it feels to not be that excited about the week-end, because really there is no rest with that monster in your head. You can’t imagine how dark the thoughts can become when I feel alone at night, wishing there was a way out of suffering. Or maybe you do, and I don’t know, because neither of us talk about it. Continue Reading

  • Money matters
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    Money matters

    I had to do all that boring stuff. You know, the personal admin papers that come in the mail? They were pilling up, and I kept hiding them in my little to-do/bullet journal/black notebook.…

    August 12, 2017
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    Expert secrets

    Nowadays it feels like everybody’s an expert. Even you, I am telling you. If Russell Brandon says so, it must be true. But you know it down there. That’s bullshit, and I’m so done with it.…

    August 5, 2017
  • Inked
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    Inked

    I come from the most typical family you can ever imagine. Living in a middle-class neighbourhood in the suburbs, adults around me usually followed the dictated path, as we might say. They clearly did…

    July 30, 2017
  • Like a virgin
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    Like a virgin

    ***Be careful. Inspired by Mark Manson and his wonderful book « The subtle art of not giving a f*ck, I’m going crazy and enjoying the use of that beautiful f sounding word. If you are…

    July 23, 2017
  • The box
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    The box

    I’ve never been good at following the rules. At five, my babysitter didn’t want to be held responsible for my behavior on our way to kindergarden. I guess it’s important to mention she lived…

    July 15, 2017
  • Underneath it all
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    Underneath it all

    I didn’t want to go. I knew they would all be there, and I didn’t want to go. Since February, I’ve been working on the most demanding project of my career. As part of…

    July 9, 2017
  • Go big or go home
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    Go big or go home

    They say you should never put all your eggs in one basket. They also say you should go big or go home. I don’t know who they are, but damn I do listen to…

    June 30, 2017
  • Own it
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    Own it

    I must confess. Over the last weeks, I have been in through what we may call a shopping frenzy. It’s as if all of a sudden I had realized that I was no longer…

    June 24, 2017
  • Clean fridge
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    Clean fridge

    Old potatoes. Rumpled beets. Organic carrots. Roasted peppers in a pot. Packs and packs of miso. Those were a few of the things you could find on my fridge a week ago. The kind…

    June 17, 2017