Life

    The wave

    October 14, 2017
    The wave

    It’s as if I had been preparing myself for it my entire life. When it got there, I was ready. No more anxiety, not even excitment. I just knew I had to go and lean in.

    It’s been a week now since he’s gone, and even though I was waiting for it, board in hand, the sea was calm. Baby waves only. Nothing worth really mentioning.

    Until that afternoon. On that lunch break, I felt the urge to lie down and rest. The Universe sensed that I was ready. It sent me the wave.

    It’s not a heartbreak. My heart is not shattered into thousand pieces. It’s a big, big wave. The kind of wave that washes you completely. Not a tsunami though. Just a big, big wave.

    “Big wave surfing can be painful and, sometimes, put your life in serious danger.”

    The wave seems at first overwhelming, but I have no fear. I know now it won’t kill me. But still. It is indeed so strong it’s almost painful. Continue Reading

  • Thank you, stranger
    Life

    Thank you, stranger

    He broke up with me by the pond. By a sunny and beautiful fall afternoon, he told me he wouldn’t come back home. Suddenly, my whole world fell apart. My foundations were gone. It…

    October 7, 2017
  • Get dirty
    Life Yoga

    Get dirty

    “You are alone but you are not alone”. Actually, it was more like “You are alone AND you are not alone”. That’s what my intuition was telling me. I was confused and lost, trying…

    September 30, 2017
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    Life

    Managing transitions

    That night, I couldn’t sleep. Blame it on the New Moon. The transition from one lunar cycle to another just happened to be perfectly synchronized with what was going on in my life. The…

    September 23, 2017
  • I quit
    Life

    I quit

    I am a quitter, and I am proud of it. If I am able nowadays accept it, it’s mostly because I stick with the first definition of the verb : to put an end…

    September 16, 2017
  • Party time
    Life

    Party time

    Hey party people. Yes, I am talking to you. In fact, I am talking to that wild, bold, audacious part of you, that part who secretly dreams of wearing red lipstick and high heels…

    September 9, 2017
  • Blank page
    Life

    Blank page

    Usually, it pops up. I just know. The title appears, and there it is. The whole blog post unfolds. I just know. I know that it is what I need to say, I know…

    September 2, 2017
  • Yes or no?
    Life

    Yes or no?

    Oh God those eclipses. If you don’t know it yet, this summer was a very intense season of eclipses. I just feel like we’ve been through such a turmoil. Doesn’t it feel good to…

    August 25, 2017
  • Dark visions
    Life

    Dark visions

    I struggle with depression. Underneath these curly blond hair and this big wide smile, there are some pretty dark and troublesome visions. If you don’t know it, it’s not that I’m trying to hide…

    August 19, 2017
  • Money matters
    Life

    Money matters

    I had to do all that boring stuff. You know, the personal admin papers that come in the mail? They were pilling up, and I kept hiding them in my little to-do/bullet journal/black notebook.…

    August 12, 2017